Connor Murphy: What Really Happened to Him?

Watch on YouTube · 2026-07-17 · 30 min

0:00 Hi, today I'm going to be talking about Connor Murphy's death. I made a video about him over a year ago and also another one many years ago. This one was called the perfect example of why you should never try psychedelics. In this video I explained the dangers of what he's doing and why it won't end well. Let's look at the ending of the last video that he posted on YouTube. You motherfuckers have an unhealthy relationship with death. It's pretty interesting that this is the last thing that he said on YouTube on his main channel. This is a video he posted not long before he died.

[video] 0:48 I'm just trying to remind myself because I'm really high.

[video] 0:57 It's getting weird.

1:00 It's really messed up to see what drugs do to people. It's alarming that many people still promote them.

[video] 1:12 I feel like I'm dying every second. Hold up!

1:18 You wouldn't be able to survive in nature, in this kind of a state. Of course, you would never consume anything that's poisonous in the first place, but people nowadays believe that they will elevate their consciousness, that they will connect to some kind of spirits if they consume toxic substances. It obviously makes no sense, but... You have to kind of believe in that in the first place to actually get into all of that. And once you do, it's almost impossible to get out of it.

[video] 2:06 So I'm just making this video so I can like watch it and remind myself, fuck, pinch myself. Am I dreaming? Is it real?

2:15 It's obvious that his brain is not functioning properly, but people don't understand that these substances are toxic. They just believe that it's a bad reaction. Of course, some of them are worse than others, but it's not as if any toxic substances are good for you.

[video] 2:40 Okay. Okay.

[video] 2:45 Just filming this for me. Okay. It's the camera roll. Don't post this one. Okay. Reminder. Connor, reminder. Don't post this one.

2:53 This is a video he posted four months ago.

[video] 2:56 The name's Mandibulus Zygomitus. Maximilian Mandibulus Zygomitus. I'm 7'6 with my horns and heel boosters, but you can call me Max for short. Because I'm a looks Max. I don't optimize my looks. i max them out here's how i he was doing the mike new thing after i arise from my inverted slumber which maximizes infraorbital lymphatic drainage i insert my mastic gum and perform my morning set of facial hypertrophy and blood flow exercise then i migrate to my fridge to bone smash

[video] 3:47 Obviously this is supposed to be humorous, but you have to be in a certain state to create this. All of the problems that Connor experienced

4:17 started because of ayahuasca, this brew which is made out of two poisonous plants. They use the leaves and the vine of the plants. They say that there is DMT inside of the leaves, this magical molecule which hasn't been observed. And they use the vine because it orally activates the DMT, whatever that's supposed to mean. It's all nonsense. In reality, ayahuasca is very bitter, according to the people who have tried it, meaning that it's very poisonous. You simply experience severe poisoning when you consume this brew made out of poisonous plants. And of course, this also affects your brain. That's why people hallucinate and many actually go insane.

5:17 We will listen to a story of a guy who tried it.

[video] 5:22 Like in the case of Henry Miller, a 19-year-old from Kingsdown in Bristol. Henry's older brother, Freddie, added, quote, Henry was an adventurous person who traveled extensively. He was polite, popular with a great sense of humor, and he was very much loved by his family and had many friends. In the spring of 2014, he took a gap year and traveled around South America for several months before he planned on starting college classes in September. He had been preparing to study English at the University of Brighton. He had arrived in Macau, Colombia, close to the border of Ecuador in April. He had last contacted his family on April 22nd, and he decided to take part in a, quote, shaman experience advertised for tourists. Reportedly, this was a, quote, local... That they advertised this for tourists is not... ...tribal ritual at a retreat called Mama Conca's Place. According to the foreign office, this experience was recommended by a hostel where Henry was staying, and he had been with a group of foreign tourists at the retreat. Each had paid 50...

6:16 The crazy, oh yeah, I was going to say the crazy thing is that they actually pay for it. We'll see how much. $50 for the experience. $50 for them is actually quite a lot.

[video] 6:28 Apparently Henry had already taken ayahuasca two days prior, but didn't feel the effect.

6:32 It's just that you pay for very poisonous plants, which you shouldn't be consuming, obviously. Your natural senses tell you not to do that, but they do it because of some ideas. Because it's supposed to, as I said before, connect you to some spirits. In reality, you get poisoned and then you hallucinate. You're lucky if you only hallucinate.

[video] 6:56 Then we all drank her cups. I threw up after about 15 minutes. And when I came back, Henry seemed to be feeling the effects straight away. Henry had an adverse reaction to the ayahuasca. According to Christopher, quote, he just got worse and worse. He was lying face down on the ground, making very weird breathing noises. The plan was for Henry to head back to the hostel they had been staying at, but he never arrived.

7:13 If you look at all of the symptoms, if you read about it, if you listen to stories, then you will see that it's always signs of poisoning.

[video] 7:22 Police arrived at the ayahuasca camp the next day saying that Henry was missing and his body was soon found beside a road outside of Macau in the remote Putamayo region. Although he had taken ayahuasca, murder was also suspected. According to local police, during their investigation, they said that two men had tried to take Henry to a hospital on a motorcycle after he became ill, but Henry died along the way, so they just dumped his body on the side of the road. At the time, Colombian authorities said the cause of death was, quote, not definitively established. They had identified the two men in question, and they appeared frightened and insisted that Henry had died from the ayahuasca.

7:53 It's messed up because there's a lot of guys out there, and girls of course also, who feel lost, they feel depressed, they don't know what to do in this life, and that's why they believe that some kind of toxic substances or poisonous plants, a brew made out of poisonous plants, is the answer to all of that. Obviously not. Only nature is the answer, and Your natural senses tell you to not consume that. It's not actually accidental. I understand what they mean by that.

[video] 8:27 It's because the people who gave him this brew made out of poisonous plants,

8:52 don't want you to know what the brew is actually made out of. They don't want you to think or talk about it. But in reality, it wasn't accidental. They understand that the brew is bitter. They know that it's not good for you. And they can always see that because of what happens to the people who do actually consume it.

[video] 9:15 We were talking about a little bit at the beginning. that you cannot overdose on hallucinogens like DMT, which this is not true, just like pretty much with any substance. There is, you know, there is too much. And whether or not you'll actually die.

9:28 There's no LD50 value for healthy substances. None at all. But toxic substances do have an LD50 value. And yes, you can obviously overdose on them, meaning that they can become lethal. This is another case.

[video] 9:48 So his mother warned him against it. She said, quote, I kept telling him over and over there are no easy answers in life. But she knew she really couldn't stop him. And she said that he was going through a teenage crisis and didn't know what he wanted to do with his life. I think that's really relatable. He insisted the drug would help

10:04 It's not that people don't know what they want to do with their so-called life. It's that they believe that they are not allowed to do what they really want to do, what they naturally want to do. And that's why they feel lost and oppressed. And of course, people want to get out of this mindset. It's really just a mindset. It's not as if you're physically enslaved. Partly a little bit, but not really.

[video] 10:35 He arrived in Peru in August 2012, and he was more of a homebody, and he had never really been that far from home. On the third night of his ayahuasca session, he never returned to his hut. And days later, he never arrived back home. So his father, Sean, waited at the airport, but there was just no sign of Kyle. His mother called the Chimbray Shamanic Center looking for him, and she spoke to an interpreter who translated for a shaman whose name was Mancoludo, who had led the ayahuasca sessions. She spoke to an interpreter who translated for Shaman Menka Ludo, who had led the ayahuasca sessions. According to Ingeborg, the shaman said that Kyle suddenly decided he wanted to leave. He packed his things and took off down the road. Ingeborg did not believe the man and knew her son just would not have done that. And why would they let him do that? Right. Yeah, that seems very odd. In the remote corner of the Amazon? Yeah. Isn't there some liability there, or at least just a genuine safety risk for someone visiting your center, right? So, and remember, this is not really one of the super cheap centers.

[video] 11:35 You know, if he's paying $2,000, that's, I don't know, not in the high end, but you're in maybe a bump or two bumps above like a really cheap center. It's not $50. Yeah, exactly, compared to the last case. So, very odd.

11:44 $2,000. And again, you pay $2,000 maybe for the accommodation also, but overall to consume poisonous plants.

[video] 11:57 Ingeborg was informed that the shaman she had spoken to, Mancoluto, had admitted to Belize that he lied about Kyle leaving the center. He claimed that Kyle had taken too much ayahuasca. Apparently, the workers at the center found Kyle dead outside under a bush. They panicked and covered him up, while they lied to everyone else saying that he wasn't feeling well and he had returned to his cabin. Shaman Man Coluto and two other men then put Kyle in a wheelbarrow, moved him about a mile down the road, dug a pit and buried him there. But then they burned all his personal belongings. So Ingeborg then returned to Peru to identify her son's body, and an autopsy in Peru determined his cause of death to be inconclusive.

[video] 12:40 His body was later transported to California where another autopsy was conducted. But unfortunately, this was also inconclusive and he was then cremated and put to rest. It's unclear if a toxicology report exists in Peru where that would have been the one to read, but his mother said it was possible. But unfortunately, as far as anything I could find, they never really came across an original.

13:02 The crazy thing is that some people will hear about stories like this and they will still do it. Or maybe they will use some kind of other substances, but my point is simply that it should deter you from using anything at all. But they don't understand that they died because it was too much for their bodies to handle. They believe that it's just some accident. But how can you overdose on something That's good for you. They believe that a smaller dose is fine. Me hallucinating because I'm being poisoned, that's all OK. But if I overdo it, then it's bad. Absolutely makes no sense whatsoever, obviously. But unfortunately, these people don't really use their senses, right?

14:00 they don't actually apply common sense to these situations let's see what the news piece said about it apparently he drowned

14:34 Some people said that he was panicking and that's why he jumped into the water. Maybe he was paranoid. Who knows?

15:03 Murphy had no signs of assault. Drowning. And I guess they found some stuff in the car.

15:32 After the ayahuasca trip, if you want to call it that, he never got off the stuff from what it seems like.

16:01 This is his house, I assume. I read something about it. And who knows what that is. Is it paint? Food? Could be anything.

16:27 This is bad. Who knows how long it has been like that. I guess probably not that long because I think that he had some sort of friends or at least buddies, some people that he met. And they assumed that he invited them to his house. They would have seen it.

16:57 But then again, none of them stopped him. He didn't have truly good friends, just some acquaintances, maybe people who also did the same.

17:13 I wonder where his family members are. Back in the US? They probably couldn't talk him out of it.

17:43 And again, if you don't understand it now, then you never will. Then you just don't want to. Then you're living in denial because you need to look at the house and everything else, of course, also. Who would do something like this?

18:02 This is what happens when the toxins damage parts of the brain. It's really just signs of poisoning and people don't get it. They believe that you can overdose on it, but otherwise it's fine. You can use this and that. No, it's toxic. You should never use any of this. Think about it. Would a natural human being do this?

18:45 Let's see what some other people have to say about it.

[video] 18:48 I used to talk to him a while ago and I don't want to insult the guy, he was clearly struggling with some mental health issues, but he was normal and then he went down to Peru, did some ayahuasca, lost his mind and went fucking nuts. I don't know why anybody is taking mind-altering drugs in shitholes in Mexico. Peru is just some fucking dump in Mexico where they have no roads and regular power cuts.

19:11 Why does he say that Peru is in Mexico? Did he take something himself?

[video] 19:17 Antibiotics in Mexico, they wouldn't even have any. You would die of some fucking disease we cured 10,000 years ago, like syphilis or some shit. And everyone's obsessed with going there and finding themselves and you end up finding the wrong guy and then you go weird and you quit your job and become a fucking stripper or something odd. Stay away from this shit. If you're going to give me a mind-altering drug, I expect your civilization to be space age. If I go to your country and you have flying saucers and a utopia with no poverty, no illness, everyone's perfect, and you sit and say, we worked out the secrets of the universe, we took this drug...

19:48 That's only possible in nature. Humans themselves cannot build that. And what he said isn't even possible anyway.

[video] 19:59 We ate this leaf and we threw up all over ourselves like children, like babies. We puked on our t-shirts. And now we built this utopian society. I'd say, okay, maybe. But if I turn up to Peru... and see a fucking dump. And you say, oh, you need to take this drug to find yourself. You came to find GDP. This place sucks, bro. If you want something better in your life, go after it. You can do it. You don't need some drug, some change of chemistry to make you want to be a better person, to make you want to improve. If you want it bad enough, you will do it. And if you don't, you won't do it. And so taking drugs to get the thing that you need or to change your life path or to motivate you, to find what you're put on this earth for. If you can't figure it out by yourself, then it wasn't meant to be. Keep searching, keep reading, stop playing videos, stop jerking the shmirk and actually try to do something productive in life.

20:45 And so Conor- It's just that Greg the Shit doesn't do anything productive himself. He just lifts metal up and down and he tells other people to do the same. And on top of that, he also tells people to consume toxic substances. Not as toxic as ayahuasca or any of that, but still, he sells quite toxic substances.

21:18 It's not that simple. People cannot simply...

21:24 wake up one day. They can, but it's usually not going to be like that. You need to connect back to nature, to your true self. As cliche as that may sound, that really is the case. If you're surrounded by people who lie to you, who act, you don't know what you're naturally supposed to eat, you believe that everything that you want to do is wrong, not everything, but a lot of it, then you will always feel lost.

[video] 21:57 Murphy, perhaps you could go down as part of the Hall of Fame for fitness influencers, one of the most iconic influencers of the 2010s. And I'm certain that he will be...

22:06 Yes, maybe, but what's the point of that? What changes in this reality... If a bunch of people go to the gym and lift metal up and down, just nothing.

[video] 22:20 Remembered for both his YouTube videos before the ayahuasca, as well as his decline in mental health following that incident. And so we basically had two Connors.

22:32 Yes, yes, you could say that. And if anything, then we should learn from all of this. That's the most important message here. We shouldn't think about the old Connor who promoted pushing and pulling metal for no reason. That's bullshit. We should learn from his mistakes. We shouldn't consume a brew made out of poisonous plants, and we shouldn't consume any drugs. It's as simple as that. Come on.

[video] 23:07 Had the Connor of old, fitness influencer, amazing physique, perhaps showing people the original looks maxing to improve your body, to improve your appearance. And he did develop a golf swing and superhuman golf abilities. He did test his skills against professional golfers and found he is at professional golfing level and that he could potentially win large golf competitions. And he developed those skills through developing his superpowers. Most of his biohacking was for the intention of developing those various different superhuman abilities, including, especially, golf, his real passion and obsession.

23:42 So, he figured... Golf is just a game where you try to hit a ball into a hole.

[video] 23:49 ...geared that through, and he did his research and he And he had the hypothesis that gold, if you can get it into every cell in your body, would have some special power of like conductivity of the electropulses that go through the body and also connect you to the metaphysical world. So Connor went to the gold shop and he bought gold bars. oh man who knows if this is true this was one of his friends and he bought gold necklaces and he bought gold bracelets bought a lot of different gold things and he put it in water with two electrodes going through it in some intricate system with the amount of electricity and the frequency and everything was very calculated he had a whole protocol i don't know the very detailed specifics of what kind of a protocol

24:44 Gold shouldn't be inside of your body. It's extremely toxic. It can kill you very easily.

[video] 24:52 Protocol, because I was not interested in injecting gold in myself, but I was interested to see if it works for him. Maybe someday I would consider it, but okay, that's an experiment I don't... That's a level 10... Yeah, this guy is really not helping whatsoever.

25:07 It sounds like he was a sort of enabler. Not really, but...

25:15 Maybe something like it. This wasn't a friend. This wasn't a guy who was helping Connor.

[video] 25:21 We were telling him that we think this is pretty dangerous. But at the same time, he's proving that it's working up until a certain point. I guess it's just like with anything with chemistry. A small dosage of something can be a very powerful tool. And a very high dosage can be very dangerous.

25:37 Give one example of that. It's the same mindset as before. These people believe that... some of these toxic substances are fine or even beneficial in smaller doses, but then magically somehow they become dangerous if you over consume them.

26:01 But what I noticed with- This is the kind of mindset that you need to have to do all of this. It's obviously a completely wrong mindset, which has been proven to be wrong over and over again.

[video] 26:13 When he's showing his skin, one of the things he's trying to show is that he's achieving this golden glow on his skin. His goal was to take enough to where the skin would change color and be visibly noticeable that he was like translucent, sparkly with gold or something like that. But I mean, the looks was just a side effect. He was going for the powers that he could give him. He was pretty, I feel like he was fairly normal until recently when he did a small amount of gold and then a little bit more and then a lot. And then all of a sudden it's like he put like a whole necklace into his body. A lot of gold.

26:48 And then normally, you know, if you take... Again, who knows if this is true, but some of that would end up in your brain.

[video] 26:59 Something, you go, your brain changes for like hours or a day or something like this, but he was a little bit different the last couple times. But then I would call him out on it, and then he would say, dude, I'm just acting, calm down. It's an act, see, I'm normal. And these are the next aesthetic bodybuilding generation. These are kind of like the guys in the old days, the Matt Ogis and Jeff Said and Connor Murphy and Ziz. This whole group of guys that inspired an entire generation to get into health and fitness and fashion and looks.

27:29 They always say health and fitness, even though

[video] 27:34 fitness is pretty much the opposite of health and just like self-improvement instead of instead of the negative side of things like you know bad music and dressing bad and not taking care of yourself and unhealthy substances like these these guys inspired a generation to be unhealthy substances did you ever tell connor to stop doing all of that

27:59 It doesn't sound like it.

[video] 28:01 Plus a lot of the so-called bodybuilders

[video] 28:09 use a lot of toxic substances themselves they use testosterone and those videos were you know 10 years ago 11 years ago maybe conor murphy's peak when he was one of the top if for a moment at least the top influencer in the world influencing people to improve their physique get abs be healthy work out and these young bangkok guys

28:35 It was all about simply adapting your body to the stress that you experience, which in this case is You're pushing and pulling metal for no reason at all. Nothing changes in anybody's life, as in nothing beneficial happens. Obviously, things change. You become unhealthier, but you understand what I mean.

[video] 28:58 Irreplaceable. Legacy lives forever. I'm grateful for him. He lives forever. on the internet and in our heads and in our hearts.

29:08 I don't like what he said at the end. A lot of people nowadays talk like that when somebody passes away. They will say that we can remember them. Sure, but is that going to help anybody? Is it going to help Connor's family? He is not present in this reality anymore. That's all that matters. Some of them said that he inspired guys to push and pull metal for no reason. Is there any benefit to that? Is it going to make you happier or healthier? All of them hate doing it. Yet they praise him for promoting something which they hate. Try to make some kind of sense out of that. You won't be able to. Fuck these idiots. Connor died because he consumed a brew made out of poisonous plants.

30:07 And later on, he consumed toxic drugs. That's what you should talk about. Thanks for watching.